When The Loneliness Strikes In

When The Loneliness Strikes In

LonelinessEveryone, at some point in their life will experience the moment when they have nobody beside them. No shoulders to rest on, no arms to be embraced with. Desperation and sadness sometimes are mixing in condition of being alone, because some people can’t handle the feeling of loneliness. When they give up on themselves, the loneliness will slowly crush them from the inside.

Even so, that doesn’t mean the loneliness has no meanings. When you are truly alone, it will be the moment when you’ll be really appreciate the pleasure of companion. When you have no one to rely upon, you’ll learn how to stand up on your own feet. Being alone will teach you many things and it will help you dive deeper into yourself.

Standing alone in a crowd, will make you realize things you won’t notice when you’re with someone. You’ll be able to hear the earth singing, and the desperation of each human who’s living on it. Being alone isn’t necessarily a bad thing if Read more

Some Twists in My Story

Some Twists in My Story

Life never lets me even taken a single breath lately. My head has been spinning around and the pace wont seem to be slower anytime soon. I never live my life as a drama queen, nor my life is anything drama-like. But, it didn’t appear that way this couple months.

I even feel that my story has so much twists that worth getting a TV Adaptation. haha

Well, in these past months,

I lost my job,

I lost some of my friends.

As if those aren’t enough, Read more

Matchbox Twenty – Bent

Matchbox Twenty – Bent

“Can you help me? I’m bent
I’m so scared that I’ll never
Get put back together
Keep breaking me in
And this is how we will end (how we will end)
With you and me ending, without understanding”

It’s an old song who’s performed by my favorite band, which I often listened when I was in junior high. I just love the vocalist’s voice and their music. Though, I don’t hear any hits from them anymore, this particular song still echoes in heart, especially at this time where I can relate well.

If you never heard this song before, try listening it. It’s really a nice song that full of emotions. The song tells the desperation of ‘him’ whose relationship is already on the edge but still wants to fix it, even though both of parties are already broken enough.  He’s tired but still wants to work it out somehow, but she just didn’t show an understanding and thinks he’s too needy. It’s kind of sad situation, where the other party just don’t want to listen and try to see how he’s trying his best to match her expectation.

But, the song is more than a sad love song. It’s giving a strong vibe and emotion about a man who knew his relationship is beyond repaired yet still trying to fix it. The desperation and the deep love are conveyed through the beginning till the ending. He’s kind of saying “Both of us are broken, why not being broken together then”. It’s really touching, for me.

Here is the full lyric: Read more

A Letter to God

A Letter to God

*Just  thoughts crossing my mind after hearing about those poor Rohingya People*

burma rohingya Dear God,

I cant help but think that my kind–Human– is a spiteful creature. The only being that capable of killing and hurting his own kin just because some stupid arguments or silly differences or even when they think their God told them to.

They can’t stand for those who don’t wear the same skin color as them and hating the others who walk different path than theirs. Having lust and greedy for power and ready to fight till death for those.

God, Why did You create us? Why did You put us in this beautiful planet just for us to corrupt and destroy? I have this same question as Angels asked when God first created Adam.

Why such a creature that write humanity based on bloody wars and selfish desires? Why are we here my Allah? To serve You? Or just as entertainment to ease Your boredom in Your eternal time? Looking Your creation make war after war for their petty ego? Is that it, I wonder, God.

You created rules for men to follow. You know that most of them won’t follow order even so You made them. Why? Some of us do praying and well behaved while some other making their own rules or interpret Your Will in form of destruction.

You know, right? You see and You just see. Why God? Why let this society, this creature You made, fall deep and deeper into darkness without doing nothing? Are You really do nothing God? Or am I too blind to see?

People stand ignorant in front of others pains and tears. Mothers no longer protect their own children. Fathers no longer provide the safety for their family. Brothers kill brothers. Leaders only cares how to make their chair pretty and shiny. Everyone does as they’re pleased. Rules stay as words in pieces of paper.

This sick situation, is this what humanity called for? Ya Rabb, I want to believe that we are created for greater and better purpose. Let us find all that purpose in depth of our hearts. In the name of Your Mercy, please save the humanity.

Hua, kembali ke dr. THT, part sekian-sekian

Hua, kembali ke dr. THT, part sekian-sekian

Yep, derita Sinus ditambah rhinitis alergy yang kuderita membuat permasalahan dengan hidungku yang ga mancung-mancung juga meski dipencet tiap hari karena pilek ini– semakin panjang saja.

Dari postinganku yang sebelumnya, hingga sabtu lalu, hampir tiap akhir minggu kuhabiskan untuk mengunjungi dr. Asno di RS Hermina Depok. Total antibiotik yang kutelan juga ga kurang-kurang lagi, saking banyaknya, udah lost-track. -_-. Komposisi obat yang diberikan dr.Asno tidak berubah, tetap terdiri dari 3 macam: antibiotik, obat pilek (yg selalu ada kandungan pseudoefedrin HCL nya), dan obat batuk, tapi merk-nya ganti-ganti terus tiap minggu. Haha.

Sebenarnya di pertengahan bulan mei kemaren, aku Read more